Saturday, April 3, 2010

When we win, and when we lose

Today has been a whirlwind of a day. Voice gets better, voice gets worse. Voice gets better, voice gets worse. Voice gets better, voice gets worse...and so on.

At the moment, my voice is better, but I don't think that I'll be able to sing. That's just from right now. God could work a miracle tomorrow morning, but He already has.

It's more of a miracle for me. I was feeling so anguished about not being able to sing, and I was just in a lot of emotional pain. I was in tears and down in my room, just talking to God and trying to find that peace that I needed. That's when that line from Facing the Giants came to me--right after they lost the big game, when they're super down and upset and angry. Their coach tells them to stop kicking themselves, and that they played a good game, and then one of the players speaks up.

"Coach is right guys. When we win, we praise Him. When we lose, we praise Him."

And that's what I'm gonna do. That's what I'm doing. I may not have my voice, but I can praise Him. I may not be able to sing, but I'm gonna praise Him. He is mighty, and powerful, and just, and holy, and loving, and PERFECT--and I will praise Him.

I gave it my all--on the rehearsal, I had a blast. It was a huge blessing and I was just filled with this joy and life and vividness. I couldn't wait for Sunday. And these past few days, I've been keeping quiet and doing pretty much everything that I can to regain my voice. But I still don't have it. And I'm beginning to realize that it's okay, and maybe even a blessing.

I am still in pain. I love singing in church, and I was so excited for Sunday. The song that we were singing was something special, and I began to feel like we could use it to impact someone. It's hard to know that I probably won't be able to sing. It's hard to know that I won't get to proclaim that truth through song--that He is RISEN. But it's not about me. Even if I don't sing, it doesn't matter. God will use something else--it just wasn't my time at the moment.  Maybe, just maybe, God will use my lack of voice in the most surprising of ways.

And even though I'm in pain, I do feel this peace. I'm realizing that this is part of His plan and that somehow, it's all for the best. Even if I can't completely see it right now.

I will keep praising Him though--voice or not.

I would still appreciate your prayers--they mean a great deal to me.


  1. Aww, what a sweet and positive attitude you have! I'm praying that God will work a miracle no matter what happens! He is just amazing.

    I love you so much, Hannah!

    ♥ Kailyn

  2. I am so sorry sweetie. I just know that God will use you to bless someone tomorrow, despite the fact that you can't sing. And who knows, you could wake up with a voice tomorrow. Still praying you through!

  3. "just talking to God and trying to find that peace that I needed."

    Hey Hannah, why sing a song when you can live it! =)

    "There's a peace I've come to know, though my heart and flesh may fail. There's an anchor for my soul; I can say "It is well."


    Romans 15:13

    May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

  4. Your attitiude is so positive, Hannah! I'm so glad you're feeling His peace. Oh... and yeah, I love that scene from "Facing the Giants." I'm still praying for you!!

    ♥ Love,

  5. Good Morning Hannah

    I Hope You and Your Family have a
    Blessed Resurrection Sunday

    God Bless You, Ron


  6. Wow, you're so positive! I hope your you and your family have a great Easter:]


  7. I'll pray for you and your voice! I know how you feel. I lost my voice three days before Christmas! It came back on Christmas, thank God!

    Happy Easter!


  8. How did it go? I've been praying and thinking about you. Hope everything went great.

  9. Hannah I was so proud of you this morning. I could see the ache in your heart as you yearned to sing. And yet, despite the gravely voice, and not being able to stood up front...bravely and proclaimed that Jesus is more important than anything. No, you didn't sing. But you didn't quit. You stood up there while your fabulous friend, Seth, sang and you smiled bravely. You worshiped our KING. And His power over death.

    I love you.


  10. that's a great attitude that you have towards the situation...hope your voice is much better!

  11. Lovely post, Hannah. That is the attitude, I believe, we as Christians should have to all aspects of life. And even if we do 'loose' we never really do 'cause the ruler of the universe is on our side!

  12. Aw, Hannah....what a great attitude! I just read your mom's comment and saw how it all worked out--I'm sure you blessed so many people just by standing there and proclaiming Christ with your smile and your spark. :)

    That being said, I hope your voice is all better now! I despise it when I lose my voice, and I don't even like to sing very much! I can only imagine how difficult that must have been for you.

    Still praying for the chum gathering situation!!!! ^_^

    Love you!

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  14. i really hope you are feeling better! i'm so sorry you couldn't sing... but wow, did the Lord give you a great attitude about it! : ) you rock. you always impress me. i love the quote from the movie. we are so quick to forget to praise Him no matter what!

  15. Hannah--

    I'm so sorry you couldn't sing! I'm still praying hoping that your throat and voice get better. I'm in the same boat-- my throat is killing me!

    I'm praying!

    Love & Hugs, Melian