Thursday, February 4, 2010

I'm back!...sort of

First of all, thank you all SO much for your wonderful comments and your prayers. I cannot tell you how much they made my day when I read them. They were definitely a blessing to me, and I'm SO grateful for you all.

And now for the nitty-gritty medical stuff. I was fatigued all weekend and I shrugged it off thinking that I hadn't had enough sleep and I was just tired from dance. On Sunday and Monday, I had some headaches, but I used the same reasoning I had used when I was fatigued.

On Tuesday, I had a slight, achy headache all morning and I was having trouble concentrating. Then, around 12:30, my throat started hurting. As the day progressed, I felt more lethargic and my throat hurt worse, until finally, I called my mom up and said, "Can I go in?" (which is pretty rare for me--I'm not a big fan of doctors and  blood tests and all that.)

We went in and I was feeling worse than before. They swabbed my throat except, I jerked back, so it wasn't a great swab. The rapid strep test came back negative, so that was good.

My mom asked if there was anything else we could do, and our doctor said I could get a finger poke to check my white blood cells. If they were elevated, I could be fighting bacteria.

Knowing how much I hate finger pokes, my mom left it up in my court. She told me that she felt I should do it,  but it was my choice.

I wrestled with this for a few minutes. My fear of getting my finger poked (believe me, I have a phobia of blood) and my discomfort with it. I prayed about it and I really felt that I should do it, but I didn't want to. I was struggling against my own wishes and then what I felt God was telling me I had to do. Finally though, I relented, and with definite fear, I okayed it.

As soon as the doctor left the room, I burst into tears and told my mom I wanted to go home. I was truly feeling miserable. My throat hurt, my head hurt, my whole body was aching, I was exhausted, and I wanted to go home and lie down. My mom told me that I didn't have to get the finger poke if I didn't want it, but I told her that I had prayed and needed to do it. That didn't make it much easier though.

So I got the finger poke, and I have to tell you, it was the absolute worst one I have ever gotten. (and I have gotten them a TON--a few years ago I got really sick and was literally a human pin-cushion). Not to make you queasy, but I could hear it puncture--loudly. I'll leave it at that.

They tested it and, lo and behold, when it came back, my white blood count was elevated more than double. And the structure was slightly different as well. I definitely had something I was fighting.

They prescribed an antibiotic for me to take, and we left for Target to pick it up. My mom was so proud that I had done the test, because if I hadn't I would've gone home with no medication.

At Target however, things took a turn for the worse. We had to wait about 25-30 min. for them to get my prescription ready, so we walked around Target. (we, meaning, my mom, Sam, Eli and me). At the end, I almost passed out. My head was spinning so bad and I felt so terrible. I honestly don't remember being that sick.

So long story short, I've been going through recovery. Tuesday night and yesterday morning were the worst. Today, I'm feeling much better, although my throat hurts pretty bad and I'm slightly fatigued/sore.

Again, thank you all SO much for your kind comments and your prayers. Both were MUCH appreciated. So thank you--I feel very blessed because of you all.


  1. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *thows confetti in the air and hugs you*

    I'm SO glad. :)

    Anyways--call me soon, k? Like seriously, at like two thirty. Please? I'll be waiting for a phone call then. ^^

    Love you,

  2. So glad you're back and fine Hannah! I will still be praying for you to heal quickly :)

    Twinkle Toes

  3. Wonderful, Hannah!!
    I'm so glad you're feeling a bit better. :)

  4. I'm so sorry you were feeling miserable. That was wonderful that you overcame your fear and listened to what God was telling you. :) Soemtimes it may be something we really, really don't wanna do, but in the end He knows what's best, eh? I prayed and prayed for you and still am, Hannah! :)

  5. Yay! So glad you're doing better! I have been praying for you. :) Wow...that sounds awful! Being sick is terrible. :( I'm sorry you had to go through that. I'm not scared of needles at ALL, but my dad is. He absolutely can't stand them! glad you're back, and I'll pray that you continue to recover quickly!

    Love you!

  6. YAY! I'm SO glad you doing better Hannah! I have been praying for you!
    Wow. that does not sound fun. I hate going the doctors too.

    I'll still be praying to you girl!

    Love you!

  7. Glad you're feeling better! Being sick is no fun!

  8. I am so happy you're feeling better! I'm still praying you'll be good as new.



  9. YEAH Hannah!!! *hugs*!! i'm so happy - i was praying for you! you are super brave - i HATE needles too but i know i have to do it... ugh. and i get sick ALL the time - very bad immune system for this teenager!!! :(
    oh well everything is God's will right?
    thanks for the update!!

  10. Glad you're feeling better. Sounds like you had a really rough time of it for the past few days. Hopefully you'll be back to normal in a couple more. Again, glad to hear you're feeling better. :)

  11. Well, it's good your feeling better, I hate sore throats...

  12. Well, I'm glad you're feeling better! Praise the Lord! I'm still praying for you! ((hugs))

  13. *gags* I feel the same way about blood and needles... (I even chose not to have an anesthetic when I had my wisdom teeth removed because I'd rather have pain than a needle in my arm). I'm glad you were able to overcome your fear and do it though! And I'm glad you're feeling better. Praying for you! :)

    Love & hugs,


  14. I am so happy that you are feeling better. I have a fear of blood too- I start to freak when I cut myself in the shower when shaving my legs and even with a bloody nose. Your so brave! What styles of dance do you do? Feel better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  15. The Irregular GirlFebruary 4, 2010 at 3:10 PM

    Glad you're feeling better, Hannah!!!

  16. I am so glad you are feeling better! I had to get a finger prick about a year ago... The nurse was laughing at me, because I was going crazy. lol Did they ever say what you had?


  17. Yay! I'm so glad you're feeling better!!!

    I don't have a fear of blood or of needles, but I can imagine what it must of been like for you.

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  19. Hi, Hannah!

    I just found your blog, and I can't describe how amazing it is! You seem so sweet and mature as a Christian!

    Also, I can't believe HOW MUCH you are like me!! I absolutely devour books, I'm always itching to write, I love to create art, and I enjoy photography and HTML/CSS as well! You seem like a twin! =)

    Anyway, I'm definitely going to be following this blog! I'm so glad I found it! I'm glad you feel better!