Thursday, October 11, 2012

there is wonder in the days spent apple picking in grandma and grandpa's backyard.

I'm sitting here eating my second baked apple of the day (oops) and the walnuts are crackling and I'm drizzling the sweet brown sugar turned crunchy caramel onto the next bite. While I'm a sucker for a good pie, some homemade ice-cream, or even a well-made cake, sometimes the simple and humble food is my favorite. Especially when there is so much meaning baked into the dish. The apples are from my grandpa's backyard, and I daresay they're sweeter because of that fact. I wrote about apple picking Sundays last year, but I'll never be able to do those lovely days justice.

I've grown up donning old t-shirts and oftentimes mittens worn from continual use to spend Saturdays or Sundays picking apples. My grandparents backyard is a veritable treasure of homemade and homegrown goodness -- twenty one apple trees (last I counted) are thick with fruit, several raspberry patches give us yellow and red raspberries with unparalleled sweetness, a vineyard with three rows plus grape vines trailing the fence on the property, an enormous garden that seems to be bursting with vegetables and always more tomatoes than we can handle, and all on three acres of glorious property that has been my home away from home ever since I was born. So, it stands to reason that growing up with this tradition of apple picking Saturdays (or Sundays) has stuck with me. We'll spend days plucking the apples from trees, only to spend hours and hours slicing, mashing, stewing, or pressing them for apple sauce, cider, or pies, crisps, and crumbles.

By the end of the day, our hands are pruny and everyone smells like apples -- the scent is sticky in the air and you can always find a discarded seed somewhere on your shirt or in your hair. But the reward is the best part. We'll come home with bags of apples, jugs of cider, and container after container filled with the sweetest, richest apple sauce you can find. More wonderful than that is the fact that we worked to create the very treats we'll be savoring all autumn and into the cold winter months, when all we're longing for is a bit of freshness.

I can't express in words how much our family tradition, as simple and understated ("who wants to go help pick apples?") means to me. I love that my grandparents have left a legacy through their day to day life, through the things that are ordinary and normal to us that have become something precious and more than special. That the beautiful simplicity that makes up picking, stewing, and pressing apples will become a story that is told for generations. A story about how family is first and how as a family, we do life together -- the simple, everyday, sometimes hard, mostly beautiful, full of joy that is waiting to be discovered, whimsical moments of life. And I am so thankful that apple picking Sundays are a part of my story.

Someday, when I am old and a mother and a grandmother, I will be bouncing a little on my lap and telling them stories of apple picking Sundays. How we wore our hair in pony tails and threw the rotten apples into the pond and to make sure a tree was ready, we picked an apple that everyone handed around and bit. How our fingers were like prunes after slicing countless apples and how the smell was thick in the air. How everyone was secretly racing to fill their bag first and how we'd climb into the tree itself to pull apples from the highest branches. How the words, "who wants to go help pick apples?" were some of the best to hear. Simple stories, everyday stories, honest stories. Stories that matter, because the ordinary moments make up the depth of our life, and beauty is found in the simple and everyday.

When I was a girl and had freckles on my face, I picked apples in my grandparents backyard and it was one of my favorite things ever...

This is a little of our Sunday. Later, I'm sharing a recipe for the best baked apples you'll ever have. Simple, understated, and a bit like home. Just like our Sundays at Grandma and Grandpa's.

Happy Friday.








































































































































































Tuesday, October 9, 2012

this is a preview of a luke, myrna, and their daughter avah.

I suppose it's an understatement to say that life has been crazy lately. With the days getting colder (and shorter) quickly, I've been scheduling and shooting some of the last sessions for this autumn. From portraits, families, and engagements, it's been a very busy and blessed time. I had a wonderful meet-up with a 2013 Bride (who brought me a coffee! seriously, so sweet. just love her and can't wait for her wedding!) and I shot a super fun family last night, so even though the days have been long and busy and sometimes stressful, they have been good. I know I've been posting a lot of previews lately, but I want to be purposeful and meaningful with everything I write, and I haven't had time to sit down and do just that. So for the moment, it will have to do. This is a preview of Luke, Myrna, and their daughter Avah, when we took her five year old photos on the day it almost rained.
Enjoy. :)









Monday, October 8, 2012

"don't move, DON'T MOVE!"

I was going to post something lighthearted today. Something fun. And then, on the way to meeting a 2013 Bride, something happened that completely altered the course of the day. I'm embarrassed to admit that I was irritated about something, and so I was arguing a little with my mom (not terribly, but I wasn't in the best mood). I was worried I was going to be late. And then, two cars in front of us, a car hit the shoulder, spun around a couple times in the middle of traffic, and hit the median. The moment is sticky in my brain. I saw swirls of dust and saw the car spinning spinning spinning and it felt like an awful movie. My mom yelled, "don't move, don't move!" twice, and I sat there waiting for the car to hit us, waiting for something to happen. She slammed the brakes and two cars skidded by us, almost hitting us, and a red van stopped by the girl's car to block traffic. The man in the car and my mom ran out to help her, and I sat very still. No one was hurt, which was a miracle, but the whole experience was terrifying. I called the sweet Bride I was meeting up with and told her what had happened, and immediately after, burst out crying. The man behind us drove a semi and stopped after we did, and if he didn't, we would have been hit.

the accident is fresh in my brain and I'm still shaky and scattered from it, but I am so grateful for life.

it's crazy to think that if we had left five minutes later, five minutes earlier, or had done one thing different, everything would have changed. how everything that happened happened in a split second, in a blink of an eye. and then how we drove away and life went on. I watched cars and wondered how they could keep moving. didn't they know what was going on? didn't they know that people could have been hurt or worse?

and it made me think about life. about tragedies happening everywhere and how we DON'T notice. how awful things, painful things, hard things, horrific things, sobering things happen everyday, everywhere, and we're either unaware or too self-preoccupied to notice or care. and i thought about how if one person had done something differently, if the car behind us hadn't stopped, if we had been hit, how our entire day and possibly our lives would be different. how fragile and precious life truly is. and how much we take it for granted. people say that all the time, but until you're in an instance where you have no control and don't know the outcome, you don't realize how beautiful and blessed you are.

my whole body is out of whack from it and i have an awful headache, but i'm here, sitting on my couch, writing. and i had a wonderful meeting with kelly (one of the brides i'm shooting next year). and for lunch, i had squash with butter and brown sugar and an egg with cheddar cheese. and i came home to see the pumpkin papers the littles had made as crafts and i got hugged and loved on by all of them.

freeways freak me out a little bit though.

but i'm here and i'm grateful for life. 

Sunday, October 7, 2012

two poems.

(i'm rusty, words cracking from disuse. but the best part isn't the shell, but what's inside.
crack away, rust away, break open. words and words and words, just waiting. :) )

wherever i'm with you
home
is not the house painted brown
(though i love the chipped
mocha shade
that signifies the end
of a journey)
it is not the
bedroom that perpetuates
messiness through discarded clothes
suitcasesspilling
their contents after yet
another plane ticket, a couple hundred
gallons of gas (unleaded)
it is not the normalcy of
routines and waking up for a cup of
tea (chai, please) in pajamas
(old t-shirts from colleges i never went to)
but it is
the people who are there, waiting
brimming with their own stories
and
listening ears and open arms ready
to hold mine.

seasons
if i said that the world
breathed clarity ice blue onto
the grass, flushed the earth
pale with the shock of winter
would you know that
underneath all the dirt
tumbled tight under white
it was still summer somewhere?

Friday, October 5, 2012

fall came early to minnesota and it be windy dontchya know.

Plain and simple, I want to tell stories through my photos. Not in a cliche, trendy, or "make my life look amazing" way, but in an honest way. A true taste of real life. My heart is to tell stories that matter. Stories of people who see the ordinary beauty in the everyday, who joyfully celebrate the good in the hard, who adventure and bless and love extravagantly and live simply and genuinely. Simple stories that matter, because the people living them matter. This is just a small story of an autumn afternoon when the wind chapped our faces but the leaves flew wonderfully. No bells and whistles, no strings attached, just honest images of our real life.

And that's the kind of story I want to tell.

IT BE WINDY DONTCHYA KNOW from Hannah Nicole on Vimeo.

view in HD -- your eyes will thank you

Thursday, October 4, 2012

my heart is overflowing

"For you are great and do wondrous things;
you alone are God." - Psalm 86:10 (ESV)
"By entering through faith into what God has always wanted to do for us — set us right with him, make us fit for him — we have it all together with God because of our Master Jesus. And that’s not all: We throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. We find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand—out in the wide open spaces of God’s grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise." - Romans 5:1-2 (MSG)
"Have you ever come on anything quite like this extravagant generosity of God, this deep, deep wisdom? It’s way over our heads. We’ll never figure it out. Is there anyone around who can explain God? Anyone smart enough to tell him what to do? Anyone who has done him such a huge favor that God has to ask his advice? Everything comes from him; Everything happens through him; Everything ends up in him. Always glory! Always praise! Yes. Yes. Yes." - Romans 11:33-36 (MSG)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

This is a small preview of the fall day Emily took her senior photos.

The leaves were glorious, the day was crisp, and the sky was cloudy when Emily and I took her Senior photos. I've known Emily since sixth grade, when we were both short and living in hairdos that were perpetually awkward. And now, she's a senior. Such a cool blessing to be able to take some of my closest friends photos and share a little in their journey that way.

Em, here is just a little preview of your photos. Let's go get some coffee or more bubblegum ice-cream soon. My treat.